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finally i opened my absolut vanilla last nite... n i noe wads my limit already... 4 pure shots of 40% alcohol... instant knock out... got a hangover rite now... my head hurts... but my heart hurts more... juz can't slp last nite... dun feel good now... got a meeting lata... b4 my labs, lecs n tut... feel like skipping lessons... got no mood to go to sch at all...

mayb i shld buy more vodka to store up n drink them as water... so i wun think so much... or beta still... if can... die frm drinking... sometimes i realli hope that i wun wake up at all after i'm drunk... coz i wun remember so many things tat i haf to worry about...

why is it that there are so many problems we haf to face n encounter in our short span of life? life is short... y is there always so many bitter n sour things we haf to face? why can't our lives be short yet sweet? why do we always haf to worry abt sch.. family... love... why???

been crying every nite... din noe i've got so much tears to spare... think i shld start saving up my tears by getting myself drunk... so i wun run dry of tears in future...